Saturday, October 6, 2012

Wishing the day away

I spent yesterday morning recovering. Or that's what I told myself. I needed a break, so I sat down with a cup of coffee and my iPad and spent some time reading, watching, listening and playing.

photo by J Kendrick


What a mistake.

As I played, I thought about all of the things I could do with the day that had nothing to do with schedules or meetings. I could edit my second book, work on my new book, design a new cover, start the book video layout, and on an on. I created a wish list a mile long - I wish I had enough time to work on these things I love. This thought bounced around my head the whole morning. I wish, I wish, I wish.

When I surfaced and looked at the clock, I realized I needed to get out of the house in 20 minutes. 

I had wasted my free time.

Now, there is a part of me that denies that - the part of me that believes I needed to tune out any productive thoughts so that I could recover from a burst of activity that had started in August and has yet to let up.

But I know better.

I only wasted a couple of hours, but I could have done some editing on my second book instead of shopping the Kindle store. I might have gotten a great first draft of a cover finished instead of looking up when Downton Abbey's new season starts. (January 6, 2013, if you're curious.)  I could have searched for the style of music I have in mind for the book video instead of creating a new channel on Pandora.

So what did I learn from this?

I need to shift how I think about my time. No, I don't need to be productive all of the time. But would a 30 minute tune-out been enough to get me back on track? Probably. I could have still worked on my book to do list. And I should have, because that is what I love. Even though it is work, it recharges me and makes me smile. My attitude for the rest of the day would have been one of happy accomplishment, and I wouldn't have had that feeling that time escaped me just as I was trying to control it and use it to make me feel better.

In the end, I did what I thought I should do to recharge while ignoring what I really needed. Did it help? Not so much. Lesson learned.

2 comments:

  1. I'm with you. I try to get my writing, book marketing, craft reading, etc. done while eyeing the baby monitor, but can't seem to focus, always worried I'll get interrupted. Got to work on that. Best wishes.
    SAH Grandma

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  2. Lynne - yes, it can be tough to focus when you know a little one may need you at any moment. Good luck to you as well!

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